Run away, run away
What does one do when one is running and comes face to face with a wall? Turn and run in the other direction. Face to face with a boulder? Run around it. Friend in need? ... -stop- ...
i have to learn to stop running away from hostility, no matter how much like a blank wall it seems. I look back now and think, maybe i lost a friend because i was afraid of the hostility she showed once. just once and i left it. i admit, i didn't contact her again and i don't know if things could've been any different. if i could have salvaged a drifting friendship. i know, it takes two to tango, it takes two for a handshake, a conversation, a friendship. if she wanted to continue our friendship she might've called me but, sometimes it doesn't work that way.
I'm not looking back and regretting the past but, i think i should've learnt from that. hostility or frigidness doesn't mean that a friendship is over, so, gotta stop running away, take a deep breath and start walking. or maybe i should just run into it...! itai.. >_<"

examisu ova! [warui warui...i meant 'exam is over!' lol.. ^^"]
kyaa..at last this exam is over and though, i did ask for it [no, i'm not crazy, i just need these so-called minor exams to get me ready for the big one.. ack!] i was dead tired through the nights of preparation for it. and so, today, i spent a little more time lazing in bed and i think, have caught up with my essential ammount of sleep. survived! yatta! ^^ nyaa...i'm actually worried about the results of my literature exam... silly me, not knowing how to answer the very first and very last questions.. -_- but oh well, will await results with that crazy attitude typical of me til the last moment then, accept whatever i get.. lol..drama again..
sa! exams over for now so, enough about that. i'm awake again. alive. from that 'low' i was in, days are looking interesting and worth noticing again. writting, once more, engages me and things of interest to me can once again expect my full concentration when i do them instead of the mechanical way in which i went about a while before. it feels good to be awake though that 'sleep' was done out of no one's accord but my own. this time, i was actually lost but i think i've found my way again. gomen for 'abandoning' all of you... but i guess, this has taught most of you that i'm not an easy person to live with, ne? ^_~ take care, ja!

random//miscellanous
finally have the keyboard at my command and i don't know what to say..amazing isn't it? oh well, something will come to me eventually...i can't just pop up and say i'm alive,right? wait a minute, i can... 'I'm Alive!' but not.. cause see, i'm in the middle of trials right now. sigh. dying...a call from my aunty [my dad's eldest brother's wife]today reminded me that my results aren't just going to affect me and my parents but all my nearest and dearest relatives who await to see if i'm worthy enough to talk to next time..but, i'm being quite a tad bit melodramatic here..i just think that i'll face rejection if i don't do well so, in a way, i thank her.. and that just proves it! i have to go all out..! now to work my lazy ass off the chair... -_-"
then, been a little sick [not the crazy kinda sick mind you...^^] all through the exams... bad on the first day...toned down as the week went on. argh..don't want to talk about exams anymore.
geez...keep getting distracted from this post. [oh yeah, Lyon was online..finally..] so, have put off msn messenger and now trying to re-download ICQ..what i do with and without messaging systems.. ^^" right, tired, wanna go rest and sketch now. ja! sayonara!

an! forgot! good luck, everybody, for the rest of the exams! [if you do see this before the exam ends that is..^^]